Monday, April 23, 2007

A photo shoot

So, here's the story. I put on the sleeveless Rogue at 8pm and head outside for a photo shoot with dh by the gargantuan rosemary shrub so I could show you all my work. I turn off the flash and DH takes 5 or 6 shots. The pix are TERRIBLE! It is not the sweater, it is not the light, it is ME!!!

For those of you who don't know me, I have had 3 children and am not a teenager anymore. I don't even expect to look in the mirror and see a size 0 model anymore. I know who I am as a person and even like myself. I HATE the fact that our culture places so much value on body size. I am basically happy with the size 14 that I am.

Excuse me while I scream for a moment.

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Thanx. Feel much better now. Now I can go back to my rational minded self who realistically doesn't expect bodily perfection. Not even going to think about it again. At least, until see another pix of self.

So, who are the people who are doing this to us? Believe it or not, I think it is other women. You know, I don't want to be 18 again. That was a crappy time in my life. I like 35. So, why do we 'model' ourselves after 14-18 year olds who have no life experience (most anyway) and have not even discovered the true beauty that they have inside themselves. Goodness.

I will try again tomorrow. Maybe the light will be better and I will have magically lost 15lbs.

catie

6 comments:

Nikki said...

Trying on jeans does this to me. I'm there with you and agree that it probably is other women...

IndigoMuse said...

Stop it. Stop it NOW! Look at the fit of the sweater. The curviness of the side cables and how comfy it is. Now, let the rest of it go. If if feels good and fits good, then screw what the world thinks. Now if I could only follow my own advice :)

T

FemiKnitMafia said...

you are beautiful just the way you are.

Robin said...

Yep...I know exactly what you are saying...I will wear no bathing suit this year!

KnitNana said...

I know. BUT - no I don't think it's other women. It's Madison Ave.

I think, I truly believe, that the generation coming after us is having a better time of it - probably because so many of them are the McDonalds babies. That's what I call my DD's generation. They're ALL heavier. They don't mind. Rubens would love them!
:)
We're fine the way we are...as long as we're FIT - and can take the stairs or rescue a child in danger in a hurry without having a heart attack, we're just FINE.

((((hugs))))

Diana said...

I know the feeling. My haircut yesterday didn't change a thing!! I thought I'd drop a few years!! I have to say though I feel good in a handmade sweater or shawl!! Despite yourself.....you look GOOD! Take my matronly word for it!